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Mohabbat ka saath kyun chhode??
---Mohabbatein

2018-03-17

Mind Of An Introvert

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Incident 1
 
it was the month of December last year, i received an invitation card of a marriage...this was the second time it happened with me...invitation card with my name written on it.


what happened actually is...when i taken part in the drama organized by the cultural committee of my colony that is the time when for the first time interactions happened with the colony members though that time i completed five years of staying here. gradually  good relations automatically bruit up with lots of people. 


so naturally one of the elder uncles invited me in the marriage ceremony of her daughter, the date was 13th December, we, the actors of that drama decided to buy the gifts contributing certain amount of money, the responsibility to buy the gifts has been given to me and to other elder brothers of the colony. as per our fixed date we tried to meet and visit the market but one of the bros stuck in some urgent work and at the end we went to market just before the day of marriage and that day same incident repeated so finally i visited the market with the other one.


we needed almost two hours to buy the gifts, though we decided what to buy but we found a big amount of money has saved, when its about buying the gifts girls can provide lots of ideas in just few seconds...so we visited some other shops and was trying to find out useful items, we returned home around 8:30 PM with the three items.



now it was the time to write down the names on the gifts and naturally the responsibility came into my shoulders and i happily accepted it, i write down the names in a text document, next day  afternoon visited the nearby cyber cafe, taken print out and then handed over the print out to the person who kept the gifts and informed around 8:30 PM i will meet others to visit the marriage.


from the time i have received the invitation my Mom and Sis trying to convince me so that i visit the marriage, they were showing lots of positive sides and giving lots of logic and also threatened that  i should change my habit, i should be more social otherwise people will not attend any ceremony those will take place in my house, even they will skip my marriage also...





my dear poor team members they were living with the notion that...jyotirmoy is so much involved related to this marriage, taking part in buying gifts, making the list, taking print out so he will attend the marriage with us....

Incident 2

 
that day i returned home after buying the household items, my family members asked why it took so much time and i informed...i met an old friend of mine and was talking with him.


everyone surprised and exclaimed with their curved eyes...so, we have to believe that you have friends also !!!!


i mean, one of my classmates...i replied with a smile.


have you ever spent time with any of your classmates !!!! i cant remember any party or birth day ceremony or any other function you attended ever related to your classmates....replied my Sis.


except remaining silent i had no other way left, yes i admit those classmates of mine who still have remembered me and when they find me in the market and road they talk with me...its their gentleness and goodness.


Incident 3

 
Sitting in the seat i was waiting for the bus to start, it was ten minutes more left, suddenly someone knocked from behind...hey jyotirmoy how are you.


i was looking at him with surprised eyes...he identified it and said the name of our college and also his department...
i imminently replied very joyously...oh, ho, sorry it took sometime, so whats up, what are doing now a days? any planning for marriage blah blah blah...


it was a three hours journey and in that three hours even still now i really cant remember who actually he was??????


Incident 4

 
it was the month of January this year, i convinced some of the elder brothers of my colony to make a plan for the picnic, even i tried to convince some others who were unable to manage time, made repeated requests also. one day evening we gathered near the temple of our colony, finalized everything, as the temple is not so far from our house they requested me to have a cup of coffee in my house, they all are aware about my addiction to tea/coffee, so i informed my family and when we reached my home, coffee was ready, they stayed for fifteen minutes and went away and at the end...



just before the day of picnic i smashed the entire plan...it seemed something totally captured my mind, i became biased, better to say hypnotized by some external forces...just before the day of picnic when i woke up in the morning the first thought came into mind....what are you doing jyotirmoy !!!! you will take part in picnic...think, think how much uneasy it will be to be there....have you gone mad?


the uneasiness that i felt that morning....i will never forget.






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