In my
earlier post Family Picnic 2016---Seasonal Celebration I have shared my experience about shooting and
my successful hits, my co-blogger Prakash asked me whether I had targeted any
bird/living object or non living objects, it reminded me of an incident of my
childhood days…
That time I was
hardly 8 or 9 years, those days suddenly I got interested about arbalests,
so I arranged an arbalest and started to practice my aim targeting the
non-living objects like trees, holes in the walls, big stones etc, it’s true
that my aim was very poor, its natural, that time one day from the Barandah of
my house I targeted a bird, a house sparrow, with deep belief that I will surely
miss the target and the bird will fly away but unfortunately I hit my target
successfully and the bird died on the spot, me and my sister dig the soil and
buried the bird. That incident hurt me so much that for next three days I remained
totally upset, silent and was unable to take food, I started to hate myself.
After that incident I never used arbalest even to practice my aim on non living
objects. My elder ones tried to consolidate me but it took long time to forget
that incident.
Yesterday morning I go
through the post of Maniparna Di, titled “Birds we see around: Flameback Woodpeckers” there she has written a sentence…
“I had never
seen a woodpecker from such vicinity! I was not sure whether it would return
again, but, to my surprise, it came back the day before yesterday with its
mate. The two of them were perhaps in search of a suitable tree where they
could dig holes to make their nest”
Yesterday evening
suddenly a thought knocked my mind…may be the bird I killed had a partner also,
may be they were trying to start a new life, may be they had lots of love
between them, may be they were living their beautiful moments of life with each
other and may be at that time I came into their life…shot dead one of them and
made the another one alone, that another one may be cried a lot, suffered a lot
and got suffocating sufferings, may be that day I made separate two lovers, two
soul mates, two innocent birds who found peace in each others lap.
May be that
day and for next few days that partner who was alive cursed me a lot…may be
this is the reason I am living a life just like that partner, may be this is
the reason I am living a lonely life without the biggest wish of my life…that
will remain unfulfilled for the rest of my life...just like that another house sparrow.
Sometime
some questions of life remains un-answered and for the rest of the life you try
to get the answer. So many thoughts, so many guessing, so many assumptions
knocks the mind !!!!!
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